2 years too long... / Shannon (bestfriends =) )
So, rewind this night... 2 years to this minute... recap!!
Earlier in the night... pregaming at the block! Molly's to be exact. All the girls were excited to be back at limestone together again for another year and we were drinking to a good night at the pourhouse! We got there already feeling good, but felt even better once we were inside. Music, drinking, dancing... even drinking and dancing contests to music! I was trying to keep Molly away from Pinder allllll night (sorry pinda) but she kept gravitating toward him like he was sending off some kind of magnetic field. But thats what he did to her. So I gave up on that and decided to just have fun. I was just hanging out drinking and being social when this guy came up to me and just started talking to me. I knew who he was, but I had never spoken to him before. I knew he was a lacrosse player, he graduated from south river and that he was brad patridge's roomate. So we got to talking and he talked me into giving him a ride home (he was pretty drunk if i may say so myself)...
So about this time 2 years ago, I pulled up to drop him off. No one was home from the bar yet and he did live across the street from Molly at the block, so I decided to chill for a bit. I started talking to him and thought he was really cool... but i'd heard from other people that he had more of a badass reputation. So when he started getting close and tryed to kiss me, I stopped him and decided it was time to walk over to Molly's!
Good timing! Molly and Ariel had just returned from the pourhouse and i caught them before they went inside. Well... inside Pinders!! Haha, Pinder was passed out in Sean Flynn's bed in the clothes he wore to the bar. Drunkass!!! Haha. Anyhow, so me and Ariel had a little photo shoot with him while he was passed out and Molly stole his phone and made some calls with it =) We ended up leaving there and I told molly about the situation with Charlie, the boy across the street. I told her I thought it was a bad idea even though he seemed nice. She said "Shannon, not everything here is what it seems, I think you should go for it." I kinda shrugged it off. So we went to sleep on a good night's note...
The next morning was probably the 3rd day of classes of the semester. I got done around noon and decided to check out what Molly was doing for lunch. Turns out that the drunkie didnt make it to class that morning!! Haha, if you knew molly, you know!! So we were talking about a lot of stuff... the night before, Charlie, Pinder, how her and Riss got into an argument, about Rob and how she didn't want Ashley or Carolyn to hate her because she was starting to like Ashley's ex. She also talked to me about Danielle. For those who know, Molly and Danielle had been friends for over 10 years and they stopped being friends because of a situation caused by me. Well she told me that morning that she talked it out with Danielle and they were friends again. I couldn't be happier about it! After all, I didnt want her to told a grudge over me & danielle's problems. It was such a good morning/afternoon. She was telling me how excited she was to be starting conditioning for basketball later that day. She seemed a little hesitant on the running, but confident all in the same. I left her house because I had to go to work.
Funny, because on my way to work, I drove past her running with her team. I honked and yelled out my window "LOVE YOU MOLLY!!" she actually did yell back that she loved me too.......WHILE she was running college drive. What a BADASS =)
Later that night... September 1, 2005, I found out that not even 5 minutes after she had told me she loved me, she collapsed and died of heart problems.
I couldnt tell you what went through my mind when I found out. I knew when Caroline, Marissa and Tana walked in the door to the resturaunt something was wrong... i knew it. And it was. My life was changed. My best friend was gone. I could never talk to her again or see that smile! I LOVED that smile!!! i miss the accent, the boots, cotton candy spray, ocean city, sharky's, flipping in the south river, the slip n slide, next room neighbors, catching me and brandon singing to each other, basketball games, ronnie <3ing duke, laxatives, lax house, embarassing the hell out of BJ (sorry babe, i love ya!), the bumpin from you and pinder, greene river, bleep bleep, myrtle beach, the cool trucker, little miss piggy, "hey turn the music down, i have something important to say........... WE ARE THE SHIT!", cop on the beach, naked surfing, throwing pinders phone in the quarry (which i thank your mom for finally solving the mystery!), hearts, rascal flatts, quadpod, eninems, the elementary school, and everything else....
I was a wreck that whole semester. To be honest, I remember NOTHING. I couldn't tell you what I did for my birthday, halloween... nothing. I was just lucky to have someone there to talk to, I do remember that. Turns out that I listened to Molly's advice about Charlie and we started talking and eventually dating. She couldn't have been more right. He was (still is) a great person and kept his eye on me for her. Like she picked him out for me or something. But one of the best things is that she showed me to see the bigger picture. In order to do that I had to open my eyes.
Molly, everyday I think of you and wish you were here for me to talk to. But I knnow sometimes you are listening. You are watching. I know that everything happens for a reason and everything bad that has happened in my life has always come out with a much bigger reward in the end. With you I learned to stick through things. From you I learned that one person can touch the world in such a divine way like an angel came to teach us all lessons. I am grateful to learn so much from you. It has been 2 years now, and even though everything is different, it is all still the same. We miss you here everyday but i'd rather not think in that way... instead now i just smile because i think that i'd rather have loved and lost then never to have loved at all. and i know that i love you girl, and i am glad that i do. Thank you for opening my eyes <3
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